i haven't been on this website in years.
i'm sure no one will bother to read this, but i just have some things i need to get off my chest. i could put this anywhere, but i think this is the right place for it. i lived so much through this website. i made amazing friends that shared a lot with me right here, but i've lost them now. i will never blame any of them for it, because it was all me. i'm not expecting to be friends with any of them ever again, because if we were meant to be friends forever, we wouldn't have drifted apart so much. i guess i'm just not that good at keeping friendships up through the internet. i was an idiot. an absolute idiot. if they ever happen to stumble by this and read it, i just want them to know that i'm sorry. i don't want them to force themselves to talk to me again because i don't deserve that and maybe it would be best for us to stay apart. but i want them all to know that i still love them with all of my heart and that will never change. i will never regret the years that we shared together because they were some of the best ones of my life. i took them for granted. i should have realized what i had, but i didn't. i'm sorry. everyone should just know that it wasn't their fault and it never will be. i hope that all of their lives are amazing these days because they truly deserve that. i don't think about them every single day anymore, but i still think of them a lot. i think i always will.
okay, well, i'm rambling now, and i don't want it to seem too long or messed up, so i'll just leave it here. i love you all. bye.